Fear, Fear, Fear,
"The greatest prison people live in is the fear of what other people think" ~ Unknown
For over ten years I hid my passion for writing because of fear of what people would think or how people would view me as a person. I felt that people wouldn't understand the difference between the author, AJ the Writer and the ordinary person Alexis, Lex, Pooh, or whatever name the people in my personal life know me as. So, for years I have just been going around and around in circles trying to figure out what is my purpose. I went to college to have a career in the medical field, and although I enjoyed it, I couldn't go through with it, because I knew deep down in my heart that was not what I wanted to do. I worked a couple of different jobs here and there and was always good at whatever I did, but I was not truly happy doing that. I had to convince myself that it was time for me to go back to the basic and go back to what it is that I have loved to do my entire life which was to write. The writing has never been the problem for me, but it has always been the opinion of others.
We have to learn that we cannot allow the fear or opinion of others to stop doing what we know we are supposed to be doing. I have known I have been a writer my whole life, but because of fear of not being good enough, or what people may think if I write this or write that, caused me to detour my mission in life. Go after what you want and don't worry about no one who doesn’t serve a purpose in your life or what they have to say. It’s ok to worry about those around you as well, but don’t allow that to stop you from going after your dreams and purpose in your life. You would be surprised, you may just have more supporters than you think. If you never take the leap and go for it, you will never know.
Since I have started back writing and back to my passion my life has been so much better for me and everyone around me. I have found my happiness again, and you can too if you just let fear go and just go for what you want. No, I am not saying that everything will go as plan and that no one is not going to ever have something negative to say, but you can learn from the negativity and look for the positive in it and grow from it. So, today make a promise to yourself to go for it! Whatever it is you’ve been wanting to do that could leave a positive impact on the world, or make a great memory for you to have. Rather it’s trying acting, making music, writing a book, taking that dream vacation, getting married, having a baby, whatever it is, GO FOR IT!!! Blessings~ AJ